he smiled

so many things had happened bt i'm juz goin 2 focus juz on 1 thing today.

he TALKED to me TODAY!

classes just ended and i was there taking my dinner wit crystel and whn he was waiting for some1 outside the office....he asked why didn;t i come last sat n confirmed wit me tht he'll b seeing me next sat...n....he has a great smile:)) i was grinning like an idiot d entire time after tht...

i'm so goin into EHOM....

a little rewinding, tuning and reminiscing

geez, its been ages since i've blogged. Anyway, first of all, i would like to praise God for answering my prayers and allowing me to study first yr law in HELP. It was truly a miracle and i have Him to thank for it. He remembered me even whn i forgot him many times. he is truly the most faithful and most loving.

alright, too many things have happened lately over the past few mthns and weeks. so, i'l juz summarise:D...1st of all, i had a gr8 holiday, i reli got to spend quality time wit my family (of coz, d occasional disagreements r normal bt then, this is my family n i actually miss them so so much)...o yea, we had a x'mas tree this yr:)...it was fabulous i tell u. Aunt patricia(mum's fren) gave us this tree wit all the decorations and trimmings...sis n i reli had fun setting up the tree. yang was throwing a tantrum so he didn't join in much though..
o, we had a bbq christmas dinner, its too long for me to say how it went but it was funny, rewarding , delicious n unforgettable. d only thing i regretted was not goin for xmas mass at fgc...i relu regretted tht

i met up wit so many ppl bt its only after all d gatherings did i realized juz how much we had grown apart frm each other. there were a few whom i didn't get 2 meet up with and it reli saddens me coz i we've been through so much 2gether; laugh, scream, cry and suffer 2gether...i only managed to hav a real heart-2-heart wit jess while d others..nt much...bt i reli reli wan to thank dear darling pris for being there for me whn the stress overwhelmed me during my 1st few days in HELP...pris, thnk you so so much for listening n praying for me...i reli thank God for sending u into my life...pls take care in s'pore n i'll b seeing u for CNY:)....

i was also reli glad that i had a chance to catch up wit my sis. i was practically rattling away at her everyday; telling her everything that hav happened and tuning in to the latest happenings at convent. Just by posting all these really doesn't do much justice to all the feelings i had whn i went bac. Bt its close enough:)

this ends all that have happened in 2007....cheers to such an eventful, fruitful, strenous, tedious, self-seeking plus a little horridness here n there too...bt without those black spots, i dun tink i could have learned this much...

looking back...

i was looking at some accesories on sale online when i came across THAT accessory.

Then, memories came flying back to me.

Memories of when i met him at camp. He was tall, cute, caring and a total character. We were perfect strangers at first then we started to talk more through our mutual love of music. Like me, he likes golden classics too and also modern rock and pop. He was really easy to talk to and really friendly. The funny thing is that he didn't realized how short i was until much later. Haha, it turned out as a shock to him as he is really really tall.

Gradually, we talked more and more during the next few days of camp. We were in the same group while in this 'Amazing Race' organized by the camp coordinators. He's really nice and quite a gentlemen too.
After the camp, we exchanged phone numbers and i thought that was the end.
Both of us attented the church christmas concert and i was bothered that he didn't even say hi.
But after church services, he would always go to me for a chat.

But sadly, the chemistry i thought we had waned. To me, i thought it was kinda sudden. Truly, it was sad, sometimes, i would look back and wonder at what might have been.

i loved it when he made me laugh. I loved it when he wear those long shirts of his. I love the one accessory he always wore. I loved it that at times, he acted like a kid; eager, cheerful and excited over the slightest thing. I loved it when he took sushi for me. i loved it when he listen as i gave him advice. i loved it when we can just talk. i loved it when he goes awkward around me sometimes.

we lost touch after when i came to kl. maybe it was just not meant to be.

a mixed bag of emotions ><

i cracked and finally got myself a caramel macchiato from starbucks today. i have a feeling i'm going to b addicted to starbuck soon. I mean, this is like my 2nd time getting something form starbucks this week. The first being a green tea frappucino with blackberry minus the cream. For the unenlightened, i hate cream.

anyway, i did a little math 2day and when i said a little, i mean little, literally. Geez, its like the entire afternoon was like 60% dreaming and 40% actually dedicated to doing math.

bummer...i wanted finish both the 2005 & 2004 paper today (that's why i bought starbucks people) but yet again, i was distracted. By what, who knows?

Reflection of the day: i worry too much.I worry about things beyond my control, unnecesarry things, trivial stuff and things that i should just leave up to God. I worry so much and being too sensitive and also worrying about how others think of me that its taking a toll on my daily life. This includes my mood, emotions and ability in handling stress and loving life.
In reality, i really do love life. I think its too short that's why everyone should live life to the fullest but this year, i'm not even following this belief of mine.

Fear has crippled me...
God stay by my side and help me solve this problem.

i just realized that washing and cleaning calms me...how freaky is that? This coming from someone who used to abhore cleaning up....

cupcakes cupcakes cupcakes...

a few months ago, crystel attended her classmate's birthday bash. Instead of the usual birthday cakes, BIRTHDAY CUPCAKES were ordered by the entire class for her. crys brought a few back or me and mei yee.

Let me tell you this they were absolutely heavenly, scrumptious and totally delicious! YUM:)

after going through a few magazines (namely seventeen mag), i finally found the elusive cupcake bakery. It's called +wondermilk+.

see? even the name is unique. They have loads of flavours and designs to choose from. They even come in the form of mini cupcakes and also the regular size. The designs are really pretty and will really make you drool and your stomach growl just by looking at the pictures.

i can't wait to order some :D

here are some pictures for you to drool at. the designs are something like wondermilk's but because all the pics of their cupcakes are trademarked and licensed, i can't post it here. So, let's just settle for this.

they look good too...but the ones from wondermilk is much much better.

something to neutralize the overkill of studying

I’ve come to realize that…
~ I worry too much about what others think

2. I am listening to…
~ juice Newton – angel of the morning

3. Maybe I should…
~ give it a go

4. I love…
~ my family and friends

5. The best days of mylife was…
~ all the happy moments in my life

6. I don’t understand…
~ why am I so afraid

7 . I’ve lost…
~ precious time and many chances to start something new

8. People say…
~ yuwen, why are you still so short, haha

9. Themeaning of my screen name is…
~ its means me

10. Love…
~ is like a gamble; complicated, confusing and exhilarating

11. Somewhere,someone is…
~ living out their dream

12. I will always…
~ love my family and god

13. Forever seems…
~ never ending

14. I never want to…
~ to look back and regret for not doing what I wanted.

15. My mobile phone is/are…
~ Nokia.

16. I believe that…
~ one day, I’ll be able to get rid of the fear in my heart and be whoever I want to be

17 . I get annoyed when…
~ people try to make me feel guilty

18. I am better…
~ off without thinking about useless stuff that won’t help me at all

19. I fear that…
~ I’ll disappoint my family and friends further

20 . Kisses are the best when…
~ they are given from the heart

2 1. Today I…
~ read a bit, revised a little and surfed the net

2 2. Tonight I will…
~ continue my revision and finish it on time

23. Tomorrow I will…
~ wake up earlier do catch up on more revision and not procrastinate

24. I really want to…
~ to go to the countryside and just enjoy a little peace for the time being…free from worries

a moody night...

The raya holidays is starting tomorrow so there will be four days worth of holidays for me.

Hols = revision time :S

i'm feeling reallybored now. I know I have to study but couldn't find the mood yet.

Sad, i know..

I feel like calling up my grandparents. Suddenly out of the blue the other half of my heart which is residing in jb is pulling this heart of mine in kl. I dunno, just feel like hearing my grandparents' voice.

Miss them so so much. My granddad's curry, my grandma's cooking, i miss seeing them smile and hearing their voice.

i'm not very happy right now.

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.

-- Eleanor Roosevelt"

dark clouds & fog ~ yuwen